Week 30

80's by Sunday - yeahhhhhhh!!!! Hope everyone is doing great.

Scans are back and although they are "improving" the tumors in the liver are not gone and so my doctor doesn't want to stop treatment. While he understands my physical and emotional reasons for not wanting to do this anymore (7 months - weekly treatments) he has to remind me of the medical reasons to continue. While mentally I completely understand, emotionally I'm close to a breaking point. Doing better this week, trying to keep my rational/intellectual side in control and keep focused on the bigger picture than to allow the physical/emotional exhaustion to take over and give up. Not a smart move to quit treatment and leave cancer still sitting there just ready to grow again, better to get it all and hope it won't come back or at least not as quickly. Medically, common sense. :)

With the kids out of school as of tomorrow I wanted to cut back on work more to spend my time with them but financially I can't swing that one yet either but I am thankful for everything I still have and what we are able to plan and do treatment or not - we're going to have a good summer!!

My plan now is to finish my next 2 rounds which will end the third week of June and see if he'll let me take off for 3 weeks thru July 4th and then try 3 weeks in a row again to get rid of it!!! Wish me lucking in getting the doctor to agree and it being the end for a while. Then surgeries will be the end of the summer - fun, fun.

Enjoy your weekend - it's supposed to be beautiful!!!

Love to all,

Lynn

Week 27/28 - I've lost track now

Hope everyone is doing great. Sorry, it's been so long for the most part it's been non-eventful. Doing "ok", blood counts were a little low for about a month but have now bounced back up to normal. I'm a little concerned with my last tumor marker blood test showing an increase from 41 to 54 but of course my doctor tells me not to worry. Easy for him to say. :) He said this can happen sometimes and go right back down again. The important thing to focus on is my scans.

I have my final set of CAT scans, MRIs tomorrow with a doctor's appt. next Thursday to review the results. If the results look good I will be done with chemo for a while and start taking daily medicine and schedule my surgeries most likely for the end of June. If they don't look as good as he'd like I will do two more cycles of chemo (another month and a half) and decide from there what is next. I'm doing my best to stay positive but pretty nervous, I want so badly to be done and not to have to go thru this again!!! But what I want and reality may not be the same.

Kids are doing great and anxious for school to be over. The girls just started softball again so that will keep us busy.

oxoxo

Lynn